Can we talk about shame attacks for a minute? I’m sure I’m not the only one who deals with this on occasion. Just when it feels like I’m cruising down the right track and getting some momentum, BAM! This OVERWHELMING certainty that I’m not good enough, that I’m bound to fail, that the inspiration and revelation I’ve received is false or made up in my head and I am, in fact, crazy... Ugh! This hit me smack dab in the middle of what was an otherwise awesome Sabbath yesterday. And I went to bed feeling completely defeated. I asked Heavenly Father to help me, and went to bed early. I woke up this morning still discouraged, but slightly hopeful that I could get through this and figure it out. Then my prayers were more specific, more honest... I waited in the quiet stillness. And I recalled this quote from a BYU devotional that I listened to over two years ago! It came to my mind as clearly as if I were listening to the devotional with my earbuds. And there was my defending warfare against this shame attack.
I was focusing inward when I should be focusing upward. I was looking around comparing myself to others when I should be reaching up, linking myself to Jesus Christ. When these feelings arise in you, remember: You are not alone. Your goals are not too big. Your weaknesses are not too great. Your future IS glorious beyond your imagination... IF you are applying the atonement of Jesus Christ and accepting His grace.